Need to stop being so shy

I hate being so shy in certain situations. I come off as being an absolute snob, and it’s fair enough that people think that too. I sadly can see why they think that.

I remember once moving desks at work, and it took me a good 4 weeks to be able to say Hi to the person next to me, even though they seemed perfectly nice, and ended up getting along well after all. I remember going into work n sitting at my desk, and i’d sit there telling myself to say something, to get a convo started, but my shyness got the better of me.

I’ve gotten better, in smaller groups I feel comfy, but in larger ones, I need to work harder on being social.

Went to Phil n Laura’s fancy dress last w/e. That was cool, I knocked up a Little Red Rolling Hood outfit last min, which showed :P and James went as the Big Bad Wolf who put me in the wheelchair  I thought later of things I could have added. Always the way  Photos are on my facebook. Do a search for Ainslee Hooper. You’ll also find photos there of James when he won MVP for baseball on the Friday before the party :D

Laura was Malice in Wonderland, such a cool outfit, and another guy was Captain Jackmeoff. Phil was The Mad Hatter. Impressive lot of outfits, need to put more thought into it next time. Damn lack of imagination  

They were playing The Labyrinth soundtrack that night, so watched it on DVD the next day with James. I hadn’t seen it in years, so was cool to watch.

Uni is nearly over for the semester. One more essay to go. Reading The Communist Manifesto at the moment and thoroughly enjoying it. In Ainsworld, Communism will reign supreme, and it will work!

Placed bets today for the grand final. May as well get some enjoyment out of it  

I miss my server. It decided to break the other week. It decides that there is no longer a hard drive or a cd rom drive, intermittently. Am awaiting for a new server to come in with a new PC. Am going to run a file server/webserver with RAID5 and then my PC. Got rid of Norton today, that made a heap of difference with performance.

James got me a new tshirt yesterday. http://www.xkcd.com/store/witty_shirt_thumb.png

Also want to get this one

http://www.xkcd.com/store/just_shy_shirt_thumb.png

Anyway, enough procrastinating. I’ve put off posting because I miss my blog, but my urge to rant etc got the better of me.

BFN

Chasers 'might have been shot' - ABC News (Australian Broadcasting Corporation)

I don’t understand the uproar about this. They are making out that it is the Chasers that are wrong. The Chasers clearly had fake security tags, and were waved through two check points. Isn’t it the security they should be angry with, for not doing their job to begin with?

Chasers 'might have been shot' - ABC News (Australian Broadcasting Corporation).

Drugs, sex and vomit prompt Californication boycott call | NEWS.com.au Entertainment

Drugs, sex and vomit prompt Californication boycott call | NEWS.com.au Entertainment.

There’s not much to say about this, except that it’s absolute stupidity. I haven’t watched the show myself, the ads don’t exactly draw me in. It’s the same for Big Brother though. I saw the ads, and that was enough for me. Sure, this may be trash, but why do people think they have a right to dictate what others should watch? The ones who are protesting outside channel 10 admit to not even watching the show themselves to have formed an opinion. The only opinion I have of this show is that it looks rather dull based on the advertising and therefore won’t be getting a moment of my time. I am not going to tell others that they shouldn’t watch it though, it’s their business.

On another note, watched Scum the other day with James. Damn good movie about a group of boys in a Borstal in Britain. Was very gripping and moving, probalby one of the most thought provoking films i’ve seen in a long time.

Also watched 4 corners today. It was about teenagers in America who get life, and life there means just that. One boy who got life murdered his mother and step father because he and his brother were repeatedly raped and abused by their step father. Their mother only had this boy as she thought it would change the marriage, and a friend testified that she saw the mother tell the baby she hated him. His brother moved out when he was 18 and asked social services to look after him. They didn’t, and this resulted in the murder. It is of my opinion that this boy was acting in self defence because of the way he had been treated all of these years and no one acted to help him. I do not understand how a justice system can be called as such when it does not deal out justice. It deals an unjust result for an unjust act (that of the treatment of this boys step father).

Ahh.. the wonder of humanity… BFN

 

Spider pig

Been awhile since i’ve posted. Been swamped with study etc.

Went away briefly a week ago to Mildura and am as a result very behind in study, hence the being swamped. Note to self, be more assertive and don’t get sucked into going away on “family” holidays. It only resulted in me getting stabby and people once again not understanding why I was feeling the way I did. I fail at communication or something.

Got a rejection for a job I applied for, but another has since come up so am applying for that one and feel pretty confident about it. Well, not really, but my head tells me I would be good, just a matter of trying to convince others of it.

Saw The Simpsons last night with James. Was funny. I was surprised I haven’t heard more about it.

Have a few things that I am putting on my shopping list at the moment. My printer went bust on Monday, so am picking up a new one today. Also saving up to buy both the DNA and fingerprint versions of http://www.dna11.com/. They will look so nice on my wall above my sofa.

And on top of that, am getting a price on a new system and making my current system my web server and file server and getting rid of current web server.

Anyway, must get cracking on study. BFN.

Ahh Neg

Neg at it again :D

lobsterking: How to Give a Dog a Lovely Breast

http://lobsterking.livejournal.com/42803.html

lobsterking: How to Give a Dog a Lovely Breast.

These guys are inspirational

Jesus Christ image sells on eBay for $1800 | NEWS.com.au

Jesus Christ image sells on eBay for $1800 | NEWS.com.au.

Excellent use of the English language.

Between Past and Future

This is funny, have just finished reading an article on Authority and the origin and nature of it. Right at the end it talks about America and how it is one of the least violent countries. I wonder if this book was censored or something?

Last night went to friends house for tea with James. Was a very nice night. Am very tired now though, so BFN

This is just... awesome

A post before bed.

Was going to post last night, but got swamped under by study. So now I have forgotten what I was going to post about. Oh well, can’t have been that interesting.

Am in major mood for hugs right now. Which I can’t stand being in such moods when they aren’t readily available.

I thought I’d have some good news to post about, but I don’t. Applied for a job, which I didn’t get because I screwed up on the interview.

Yesterday was a good day of study, I had wanted to do more than Anthropology, but alas, have had to postpone Philosophy. Did some tonight, but have a headache and other distractions going on, so have got only a small amount of what I wanted to get done, done.

Anyway, too tired to write much else, am fighting of a migraine and wading through the fogginess of codeine.

BFN.

Why abortion should be legalised.

I heard about this during the week, but when I read this article I actually cried. Just the thought of a) what the mother must have been going through to go to this measure, and b) how scared the child must have been, if it lived past birth for long.

If people cannot see that legalising abortion would lower the rate of this happening, they are burying their heads in the sand. It won’t stop it from happening as there will always be people who will err about getting an abortion, but with legalising it, at least we will remove some of the stigma that goes along with it.

http://www.theage.com.au/news/national/emotional-funeral-for-dumped-baby-boy/2007/07/21/1184560091247.html

?!?!?

Ok, so at first i thought WTF, then someone pointed out to me the relevance of this hair cut. Now i’m oddly impressed….

General philosophical wonderings

I’ve started studying for the semester, so my brain is in fine form at the moment. As i’m doing the two majors, Philosophy and Anthropology, there is something about the two that are in conflict with each other that I am trying to reconcile.

On the one hand, you have Anthropology, the study of mankind. We are taught that humans are social beings. If this is the case, why do people such as Hume and Sartre believe respectively that we are in a state of nature that is on the brink of war and that hell is other people? Is it that our human nature yearns to be social with others, but this then brings up conflicts that ruin these social relationships? Are we really social beings? Or is this just a pipe dream?

Mitchell Henderson - Encyclopedia Dramatica

http://www.encyclopediadramatica.com/index.php/An_hero

Mitchell Henderson - Encyclopedia Dramatica.

Not sure what to make of this. James told me about this last night. On the one hand it fascinates me how trends evolve on the internet. Such as the use of an instead of a when talking on the internet.

On the other hand, I find it sad that a boy who had been bullied (note, it wasn’t just because he lost his Ipod) committed suicide and then it’s made a joke out of. I can see the humor in it if it’s just because of something material, but there was more to it than that.

Makes me wonder how people would react if the same thing happened to someone they loved.

:D

I got my uni results last night. I got a D for both Anthropology and Philosophy. Very chuffed about that :D Am on track for getting into Honours still at the moment.

Last night James and I had Japanese. I had Yakitori and California Rolls, James had something else and California Rolls also. They were delicious.

Am getting an early start on my study today. We have pretty much everything available for the semester online for my Philosophy subject so may as well get a head start on it. We have our essay questions which I can’t wait to do. It’s all Political Philosophy (ie how we should live). Haven’t felt this excited about study in quite some time. Not that I haven’t enjoyed my other subjects, but there’s something about this type of Philosophy that I love.

The Simpsons movie is out this month. Also can’t wait for that.

Not much else to share at the moment. More later, BFN

P.S.

Got some good news on Monday. More about that next week :D

Maybe

Maybe i need to harden the fuck up. Get stabby however at people using me as a point of reference to make jokes or comments or take what I say and ridicule it when I am trying to at least make an effort of contributing to conversation. Am also tired at the pointing out the differences. Yes it’s blatantly obvious and something that I personally don’t like being highlighted for humors sake. Sue me, but I like it when people accept me for me.

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind people asking questions, and it being talked about casually. If people are genuinely interested because they care, I also don’t mind that. I do however mind when it’s a point of reference constantly, it makes me know that people are not seeing me for me and I am constantly reminded that I am not like them, I am in some way not right. Or am I not me without that?  Am I foolish in thinking that it’s a separate entity to me?

– EMO enough for you?

The stupidity of people

The stupidity/carelessness of people never ceases to amaze me.

Awareness raisers.

I want to get others opinions on awareness raisers such as Live Earth. Are they really effective? What’s a better way of dealing with these issues?

What do you think?

One of the many reasons we should choose what we buy.

http://www.theage.com.au/news/world/chinese-capitalism-reveals-dark-side/2007/07/06/1183351458713.html

Perfect example of why we should be careful about where we buy from.

Something to watch - and a bit more

 

Found this whilst browsing YouTube and found it both clever and interesting. It’s interesting how we perceive people based on external influences. If we took the time to learn about people ourselves, our lives would be so much more enriched. That’s why i’m so excited to be able to study Anthropology. I’m learning so much about people that I didn’t know anything about, or I had preconceived notions based on what i’d been taught, which didn’t necessarily mean it was true.

Been watching documentaries all day today. Watched a documentary firstly on Noah’s Ark. I try to keep my mind open about these things, but the fact that he was supposedly 500 years old when he was on the ark, seems a tad unrealistic to me.

Also watched an interesting documentary on the Mennonites in Mexico. It was about whether or not they should give into modern technology to better their lives. Some chose not to, some did. The part that has stuck in my mind is when a family went into town and the boys saw television. Even though I personally think children don’t need to be in front of a television all of the time, it made me sad to think that these children were in awe of this and almost looked sad or not quite sad, but there was a different emotion on their face because of this experience.

Last night James and I had those yummy dippers from Pizza Hut. They were delicious.

Today it’s a tad freezing. So just veging out watching stuff i’ve recorded and bludging doing nothing much else.

Check out the Jason Mraz channel on YouTube when you get a chance.

BFN.

p.s. The Simpsons movie is here in 20 days!

Concert leaves Monkeys cold - World - theage.com.au

http://www.theage.com.au/news/world/concert-leaves-monkeys-cold/2007/07/05/1183351346267.html

It’s about time. Yes the idea of live Earth is interesting, as was Live 8 and of course Live Aid. It raises awareness on issues that our governments should be addressing. But as one of people in this article point out, there’ll be the power of 10 houses for just stage lighting alone. If they want to try and do something for the cause, they should be doing something that at least has some kind of credibility to it.

I personally don’t like Angelina Jolie, but that’s a personal thing. I do however like what she does for humanitarian causes. This is the kind of thing that needs to be done, Putting money where mouths are. Angelina said in one interview that a third of her income goes to overseas causes because of the ridiculous amount of money she earns. This is the kind of thing I respect no matter the person. This is why I sponsor my two kids overseas, because I know that this is the kind of support that gets things done. Not playing music.

Jason Mraz - I'm Yours

Wow, a decent Pink song.

Just downloaded a decent Pink song. I feel rather dirty saying that she has a decent song out :P The one called Mr President, is probably the only good song she’s ever had out. I’ve never really bothered to give any of the other stuff a chance. It’s a good song, and I’d love to know what the response from George W. would be. Of course, we’ll never know.

Uni starts back in a week and a half. Besides that, not much else going on. Am just about to go and do some exercise to get myself fit. Wish me luck, BFN

Organisation.

I’ve decided to organise my life a bit better. I’ve written out a list of what I want to do with my degree.

http://www.ainsleehooper.com/mediawiki/index.php/Degree

I used to think that writing out plans for your life was pointless. Now I find that they are somewhat comforting, they give me something to aim for, if nothing else.

The enlightenment

Hate self stabbyness moods. Ran into an old friend last night who happened to tell me they’d ran into another friend when they were over here recently. Mum had commented to me that she was surprised I hadn’t heard from this friend. I just shrugged it off. After last night I’ve got stabby at myself, I don’t know, maybe it’s not me, more likely it is. Yet another one of those moods asking questions of myself that I either don’t want to answer or can’t find the answer to.

Am I a fraud and others just haven’t caught onto the real me yet?

Wow, what a blog worthy post, full of angst and all. meh.

Yet another one for James

This one's for James

Why do they allow morons to become parents?

http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,21993430-2,00.html

This is an article about an American man who shot his kids up with heroin and cocaine so that they would know how he felt when he did it.

Not only is this a form of abuse on it’s own, but one of the children has contracted Hepatitis C as a result. This guy got 10 years jail for this.

This seriously makes me question constantly how on earth people can become parents. Yes it’s easy physically to become a parent, but there has be some change, ie some kind of licence to do it. You have to have a licence to drive, own a gun etc. You should have to have a licence to become a parent. 10 years is far too light in this case, although I will bite my tongue in saying what I feel should happen to him. There should be a thorough screening process before someone is allowed to become a parent. I thought the whole monitoring babies recently in the news was a bad idea, but frankly I have changed my mind. There should be a psychological and drug test that the future parents need to pass before they’re allowed.

I look forward to the day when science allows us to make it possible to prevent the biological process of reproduction until this kind of test has been passed. Once the couple in question have passed, they should then be implanted with something that enables them to reproduce.

BFN

Feminists wanting equality.

http://www.news.com.au/comments/0,23600,21982532-2,00.html To start off with, here’s a recent article about an all-women political party that has been released on Wednesday. Some of the comments are interesting, but personally I do not see the point in having an all one gender political  party. If what people are fighting for is equality, then they should be practising equality. I went to a co-ed school and found it good for me socially. I felt more comfortable talking to the guys than I did the girls. I do not believe that we should be trying to fight for equality by making a gender specific party. This in my opinion, is a step backwards and not forwards towards the aim that these people supposedly want. We both have different qualities that enhance each others lives, and when e find things that seem to quash these things, we should enjoy the struggle. In working together, will we only be able to achieve the aim of equality. By segregating, we are doing just the opposite, so it seems fruitless to me.

I went on an Officeworks spree last night for next semester. Also opened up my email today to find information about Honours program when I finish this degree. Very chuffed about that. Anyway, am going to go and read it a bit more thoroughly. BFN

Stereotypes

I read something rather interesting today. The article in question is located it http://www.news.com.au/comments/0,23600,21975434-5007146,00.html

Basically the gist is about a man talking about why he has chosen not to have kids. Some of the comments have surprised me. Personally I don’t want children. I love my nephews to bits, but for various reasons, I don’t want to bring children of my own into the world. The worst reason would be because it’s what i’m expected to do . The first reason is though that i’m too immature, and the second is that I do not want to risk passing on my disability to a child. That would just be cruel to put a child through that unnecessarily. I, like the author of this article, hate it when people think they are far more superior than I because they have children. They have simply chosen another path in life, mine is to focus on things like my study, relationship etc.

The other interesting article is at http://www.news.com.au/story/0,23599,21978876-2,00.html

It shouldn’t surprise me or shock me, yet it does. The CIA doing experiments to this extreme, and they make out that Mengler was bad. Sure he was, but the CIA are just as bad. One incident talks about a girl who was experimented on so as to create multiple personalities. What frightens me is that this is stuff you think only happens in movies. Also the other part that frightens me is that they are allowed to get away with this. One rule for them, another for us.

It makes me question the different political parties and which would be best, but I am sure that this stuff would unfortunately still go on, no matter what party is in power.

The world is too frustrating at times.

A theory of mine

I came up with a theory last night on how to solve the problem of energy. Lately there’s been major discussions over nuclear energy versus other kinds. So here’s my solution:

Take all the criminals, and use their body gas (farts) to generate power. I’ve been on the receiving end of some shocking smelling farts in my time, so I think that this idea could work. Give them something that would mean that they’d be continually farting. We’d not have to worry about ruining our environment with nuclear energy etc. Some of you may be saying that nuclear energy is the cleanest of all. Sure, until nuclear power falls into the wrong hands and things go boom.

BFN.

Yes, I have no coke :(

The Cure is touring! Although I have a strange feeling it will be when I’m away on holidays. Will have to check this out. I think out of all the bands I’ve seen this will definitely top the list.

My three weeks of holiday bliss is over. Back to work on Monday.

Was going to go the the museum with James last week but got a bit cold so will leave that till it gets warmer. We basically had a lazy week, but those are the ones I enjoy. First week, I went to a bbq with James to meet a bunch of his friends which was nice. The next week I had an exam which I’m confident I passed and then last week James and I both had the week off and bludged. There was many a dodgy movie to be watched. We still have heaps more to get through. We watched Bad Taste, Legacy of Rage, The Hebrew Hammer, No Retreat No Surrender, some other cheesy but excellent movie of the same vein with Billy Blanks in it, and then to top it off some Sarah Silverman. Funny stuff.

Was too cold to eat out too much so we ate out at a Turkish restaurant and then just ordered in. Will hopefully get to a Japanese restaurant on Friday for some Sushi.

It’s 10:47 am and i’m already getting droopy eyes. There’s no caffeine in the house at present. *shakes*.

Think I might spend today finding other stuff to go on ebay.

BFN.

Wow, I have spare time.

This is weird, I have finally finished all of my work for the semester. Usually what I do, is if I know I have an exam for one subject, I tend to leave some of the work for the other subject, if it’s not assess-able of course, until I have finished my exam. Not only does it give me a bit of a filler between semesters, but it helps me keep focus on the impending exam. So now that I have finished all my reading, I’m pondering what to do.

My gut reaction is to start reading my book for my next semesters work. It’s on Bedouin culture in Egypt. Not sure of the other readings for my philosophy subject, as the book list hasn’t been released yet.

I went shopping recently and got a few nice jumpers and pairs of trackie pants. Had to exchange a few but got a nice couple of tops in exchange. Also purchased Plato’s Republic. I have a book full of things I should be reading. I started to read 7 Habits, it’s very interesting. I need to finish books before I start others though.

Ok, I think I should stop procrastinating, yet again, and put some clothes away. BFN.

Mapping out my life :D

Ok, so I think I have my life a tad more organised now. Not that it wasn’t before, I just like to set out a path of where I’m going so that I don’t let myself be distracted by things that aren’t worth the time.

So, once I finish my Bachelor of Arts, I want to complete my Certificate in Arts and Science. After that, I want to do Honours in Bachelor of Arts, and finally i want to do my Master of Arts. So, if I keep doing it all at the pace i’m doing, i’ll be finished by 2017. If i miraculously come into some money, I can take some time off work and do that a tad quicker.

James and I are off to the Melbourne Museum on Tuesday. I can’t wait. I haven’t been to the museum since I was a kid so am feeling like a kid all over again in anticipation.

Meeting a few uni people on Thursday too so that should be good.

Anyways, i should go and do something productive with my day. BFN :D

Retail therapy

I did a bit of retail therapy today. I’ve decided that i’m a shopaholic. I go into a shop, I see a bunch of stuff I want, and instead of thinking, hrm, should i get this, or can I afford this, I just grab. Not that I can’t afford it at the moment, I just get moods where buying things gives me a rush and because of that rush that I get, I want to keep going because that rush makes me feel good. It only backfires when later on I realise I don’t really have the money. Thankfully i’ve been budgeting so that’s no longer a problem.

I want to start reading 7 Habits of Highly Effective People tonight. I have this niggling thing at the moment which I’m hoping the book might be able to somewhat answer for me. I keep doing this habit where, if something bad happens, or if something doesn’t go to plan, not to any fault of my own, I automatically think that it’s because of me that it’s happened. That it must be me that is the reason for things not going to plan, and if I were in some way different, or a better or more likeable person, things would go to plan. I’m hoping that once I read this book I can get out of this pathetic train of thought. It makes me stabby at myself to have such self depreciating thoughts. I find that a) they’re a waste of time being in my head, and b) when i’m being like this, and worrying so much, i’m no fun to be around, and so the cycle continues. At least i’m not just wallowing in it all, and I do want to do something about StabbyAins. BFN.

wonderings

Is there something that is at fault in my own character, when I get annoyed at sheep like behaviour?

Haven’t got much done today. Put stuff on ebay, and am currently trying to read some left over uni stuff but finding that as motivated as I should be. Something else i’m kind of stabby over. Why is it that when it’s something that I choose to do, i’m not as motivated over something that I *have* to do? BFN

Exams over for semester :D

Just had my exam for this semester. Was an anthropology one. I love how I worry myself that I won’t go well, to the point that I over-study  There was a heap of stuff that I studied for that wasn’t even on the exam. So now it’s just a matter of waiting until July 13th for results. Am going to do a bit of cleaning up now and finishing some other work. BFN

A perfect day

Here’s an example of one of my ideas of a perfect day.

Home alone, listening to music up loud and to top it off, finding a CD that you haven’t listened to years that is absolutely kick ass – The Tea Party, Transmission.

There are other forms of a perfect day, but this is one of them :D.

Not to mention, i have an exam tomorrow that i’m feeling very excited about now. Bye bye nerves!

Oh, and Happy Birthday James! <3 :D

Gah

I hate wanting hugs. EOM.

Can you save the bunny?

 http://www.10mg.nl/

Note to the world

Here’s a handy hint for people out there. Just because you don’t have any emails, doesn’t necessarily mean your email is broken. It may simply be because no one has sent you any emails.

3 weeks of bliss

Today starts my 3 weeks of rec leave. Going to study for exams for the first week, sit exam second week and bludge with James third week :D

Speaking of James, yesterday he bought me a present :D http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zen_and_the_Art_of_Motorcycle_Maintenance

and http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Seven_Habits_of_Highly_Effective_People

I have so many great books sitting on my bookshelf now that I need to get into reading. Will be good at the end of the year, if I don’t do summer classes, I’ll spend some time reading all of these books.

Last night James n I ordered in Noodlebox, that was delicious.

I’m pondering if I should study today or procrastinate and start studying on Monday.

Anyways, this in itself is procrastination, so going to go be a bit more productive :D BFN

Something i've been thinking about.

It’s been ages since i’ve done a good blog. Been so busy with distractions. Couple of weeks and I should be free of that for a bit.

Anyways, I have a question. I want to know why it is on the new Intel Duo Core Processor ads, that there’s a freakin woman dancing around? I’ve been into computers for many years now, and I can honestly say that I’ve never felt the urge to do that. If I do, someone shoot me.

Another genius thing I saw on TV the other night was with David Hick’s kid, they asked him what he thought a terrorist was. His response was “someone who wears a tea towel on their head.” I don’t think there needs to be much said about that. The thoughtless stereotype speaks for itself.

Heh it’s interesting to note, going back to the Intel ad, how it seems more cool now to be into computers than it was in the Revenge of the Nerds days.

Ok, enough procrastination, back to the study, BFN

Ainstech support, at your service.

So, have had the most unproductive last 5 or so days. Ended up in hospital for a couple of them, overnighters.

Have to get a start on studying for exam. Have had a total of 8 hours sleep in the last 3 days. Am very tired .

Spent the arvo today setting up a friends internet for him. I’m so not a tech support person. I’m like, i’ll show you once, and if you don’t get it, don’t blame me for getting stabby. So he says yeah he has it, i get home, having tea and phone rings. argh. I need to be more patient with ppl *Nods*. I’m selectively patient.

I got a D for my Anthropology assignment so very chuffed about that :D

Ok, am going to go clean up my desk and bookshelf and think I shall curl up in bed for a quiet one. BFN.

T3h G33k Qu3En StRiK3z AgAiN

Ok, so now i have fully configured my irssi so that i’m connected to all servers and can detach when I want and still remain on IRC.

Next thing I need to do is buy UPS. Then will have to configure it all again I guess.

Irssi

Ok, didn’t think that I personally would go any geekier than sshing. But no, now i’m ircing via irssi. I like it. It’s weird.

Al-Qaeda Torture Manual Found & Released by DoD (***Warning Graphic***)

http://www.freerepublic.com/focus/f-news/1839102/posts

Al-Qaeda Torture Manual Found & Released by DoD (***Warning Graphic***).

Scary stuff.

Now playing: unknown - 2007-05-22 - 09:00

Now playing: unknown - 2007-05-22 - 09:00

Now playing: unknown - 2007-05-22 - 09:00

I have an idea :D

I love tired ramblings. I’ve finally thought of a new idea for one of my domain names. More to come soon :D

Wasting time.

Just wasting a few hours before I have to go have an op on my foot. Doc says I should only be in for 3 nights. Had a crap night sleep, woke up at 2 am, and been awake since and fasting. Am badly wanting a can of coke.

Have got all my stuff packed to take with me to keep me occupied. Although I’m going batty already at the idea. Ramones is playing along in my head atm. 20 20 24 hours to goooo I wanna be sedated…

P.S.

Wish there were more people like Janis Joplin in the world. I always feel relaxed when listening to her.

Now playing: Janis Joplin - Me & Bobby McGee

Now playing: Janis Joplin - Me & Bobby McGee

Now playing: Janis Joplin - Ball & Chain

Gifts from afar

As I said in my last post, Trav got me some Buddhist iconography from his trip to Bhutan and Thailand.

I’ve made it a point that every chance I get, I’m going to get a souvenir of the religious iconography of that country.

He gave me a few Buddha statues, Elephant statue and Prayer Flags.

I’ve now adorned my bookshelf with these items. Speaking of bookshelf, purchased my books for semester two today. I have about 7 books coming in the mail now \o/. Am eager to see what’s on the recommended reading list too.

BFN

Serenity now.

I have decided that family gatherings are just seances. In various cultures seances are used as tools to bring out the truth about matters. It seems to me that the family gatherings in which I am obligated to partake as part of being a member of a family unit, is to bring out what I like to call StabbyAins.

It’s interesting that people bring up matters, and then when those issues are responded to, they don’t like the answer, which I find surprising. It gets to a point where in the end they’ve annoyed me that much that I just say what I think about certain people and then they wonder why i’ve reacted in such a manner. Yes, I”m a horrible person.

Or am I? I feel like when I’m like this, that yes I am a horrible person. Are my normal moods and facade, just that, a facade? I think that’s what makes me most angsty is that when I get like this, they don’t seem to be surprised by my reactions?

It must be like the oracles in Zande life. They’re only considered powerful in an oracle situation. Maybe i’m just a horrible person in these situations and normally not. Who knows. Now i’m thinking too much :P

Trav got me some lovely Buddhist iconography that’s now sitting on my shelf.

Didn’t get to go have lunch with James n Julia today because of this family thing. I’ve decided that I need to move out. I know i’d be a nicer person overall if I didn’t feel that I was obligated to be in these situations. If it were a situation where they called me to ask if I could come, I could say no, and then I would feel better.

Anyway, need to stop the brain thinking, BFN

Here's the Scientology video

Hi all, thanks to someone who commented on my last post, here’s the link to the Scientology video I was talking about.

http://www.bbc.co.uk/mediaselector/check/player/nol/newsid_6650000/newsid_6651700?redirect=6651721.stm&news=1&nbram=1&nbwm=1&bbwm=1&bbram=1

As you can see, what has been publicised is of course only half of the story. I’m not sure how people think they can portray themselves as people to be taken seriously when things like this occur.

 

BBC and Scientology

For anyone reading this, I’ve been trying to find the full video of what led to the journalist on the BBC going nuts at the Scientologist he was interviewing.

The Scientologists would have you believe that the journalist was in the wrong. As I have only seen the part where he goes nuts, I would like to see the whole story to see how they antagonised him. Cheers, Ainslee

I smell of cigarettes

Went out for drinks last night with Shelley, her sis Bec whom I hadn’t seen in years, James and a few of their friends.

Had the best meal I’d had in ages at Irish Murphy’s. Mee Goreng. James had an Irish Coffee to finish off the dinner. I had a sip, and *ergh*, i’m shuddering just thinking about it.

I don’t know if i’d been to that pub before or not, but it was an excellent place. None of this, i dress cooler than you crap. I had about 4 or 5 shots of vodka which at first I was a tad scared of trying, but damn they’re yummy.

I feel like such an old fart, was home by about 10. I remember getting in the house and mum was watching something. So i went past her as studiously as I could to mask the inebriation. I haven’t been drunk in ages. Last time was my friends hens night over a year ago. I have to say I like my personality moreso when I’m drunk. I’m less worried about how i’m acting, which isn’t such a good thing :P But i’m more relaxed which is good. I smell of cigarettes although I know I didn’t smoke, and didn’t think I was around anyone who was smoking.

Was great catching up with Shell and Bec like that. Shelley goes back next week  Going to have to save up and go on a trip methinks. Let’s see how this pans out.

Ok, enough procrastination. I think i’ll have some greasy pizza for lunch and then try n do some study.

BFN

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Also, got my Treo 750 in the mail today :D It’s so purdy. Spent more time playing with it than studying, although I still got all my study done. Am reading about witch-craft at the moment. I love uni :D

Making a different for the next generation :D

Well, I’ve finally made my dent on the world in making a difference. I recently got stabby over the treatment of one of my subjects at uni. I felt that it was scantily taught and for reasons that I did not feel belonged in an academic institution.

My lecturer notifies me that he’s going to rewrite it for next year :D

BFN

Threat to blow up Clinton lands student in jail - World - theage.com.au

Threat to blow up Clinton lands student in jail - World - theage.com.au.

What exactly about this is an act of terrorism?